I didn't think this feeling would come so quickly. Lately I've noticed I have become much moodier. I am about to get my period soon so maybe that could be the reason why I'm moody, but I think it's due to my realization that I will be leaving Vietnam soon.
I don't know when! But I know soon, I'm already planning on exactly where I want to go and I'm waiting for both my mind and heart to be like "Yeah Steph! You got this, pack up your shit and go!" I won't mention my potential destinations. Most people can agree that it's a depressing feeling when you leave or someone you care about leaves. I've said Goodbye to soooo many people during this trip that it gets harder and harder for me to deal with, which explains the moodiness. However, I know by the time I am ready to go, I will be in better spirits, cause I'd be looking forward to the challenges that awaits me.
My students at school help me a lot and they always make me smile. It's nice to 'not know' my plans and go with the flow, which is what I have been doing this whole time. However, I still prefer to be in control on what I want. I have many choices and I haven't been able to choose, that bothers me. Normally, I just know and it clicks in my brain; Nepal! India! Vietnam! -sigh- we'll see what happens.
I called my school loans company today to renew a forbearance on my account. I owe $35,500.00. (I went to a private art school!) I had an interesting chat with the representative:
Do you work more than 30 hours a week? No
Do you plan on getting a full-time job within the next month? Nope
Sometime this year perhaps? Nope
So...when do you think you will pay for your next payment? Uhh...not for a...while.
How long would you like continue the forbearance? What's my limit?
Likely 2 more years. Perfect.
May I ask...what are you doing? Taking a long needed break.
Good for you. (I hope he meant it)
I don't know when! But I know soon, I'm already planning on exactly where I want to go and I'm waiting for both my mind and heart to be like "Yeah Steph! You got this, pack up your shit and go!" I won't mention my potential destinations. Most people can agree that it's a depressing feeling when you leave or someone you care about leaves. I've said Goodbye to soooo many people during this trip that it gets harder and harder for me to deal with, which explains the moodiness. However, I know by the time I am ready to go, I will be in better spirits, cause I'd be looking forward to the challenges that awaits me.
My students at school help me a lot and they always make me smile. It's nice to 'not know' my plans and go with the flow, which is what I have been doing this whole time. However, I still prefer to be in control on what I want. I have many choices and I haven't been able to choose, that bothers me. Normally, I just know and it clicks in my brain; Nepal! India! Vietnam! -sigh- we'll see what happens.
I called my school loans company today to renew a forbearance on my account. I owe $35,500.00. (I went to a private art school!) I had an interesting chat with the representative:
Do you work more than 30 hours a week? No
Do you plan on getting a full-time job within the next month? Nope
Sometime this year perhaps? Nope
So...when do you think you will pay for your next payment? Uhh...not for a...while.
How long would you like continue the forbearance? What's my limit?
Likely 2 more years. Perfect.
May I ask...what are you doing? Taking a long needed break.
Good for you. (I hope he meant it)
He probably wanna be away from his boring job too.
ReplyDeleteyou are truely amazing with a strong heart. be it whatever, you inspire people and the best of all. you inspired me.
ReplyDeletethank you...means a lot.
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